“Though the sorrow may last for the night, Your joy comes in
the morning.”
This is truly the promise that I have to rely on from time
to time. I seem to do oh so well, and
then a night comes like last night, and my pillow finds itself wet once more
with salty tears. I get tired of crying
and being so sensitive. I told Andres last
night that my heart feels like a fresh wound.
The bleeding, and extreme pain is gone, but the sting of the fresh skin
hurts when it gets rubbed the wrong way.
Do you know what I’m talking about?
The kind of fresh wound that has new skin exposed and you have to wear
pants because it’s still cold outside, so every time you move your legs, it just
scraps that new skin and stings once more.
It’s not until we put on a fresh BAND-AID that we can bare the movement
against our wound. That’s exactly how I feel!!
Yesterday, my BAND-AID was wearing off, and almost every move I made, it
was rubbing against it and causing unwanted/unexpected tears to just fall. I feel so bad for the new people around
me. They don’t know me any other way!
Lord, I just have to believe in You because if I don’t trust
that You still have me in Your plan, I have no reason to carry on with my
faith. I have no reason to encourage
others about their pain and wounds and I certainly have no reason to stay close
to You. I know that You are doing
something new, but it hurts so bad, and honestly at times I feel hurt by
You. I just feel like You may be
watching from a distance from time to time, and all I really want is to feel
your ever present presence!!!!! I need
You, Lord, I need You and my family does too.
We CANNOT function in the day-to-day plans without You. Please continue to hear the cry of our
hearts, even if our pain is not expressed through tears, see whatever action of
pain we have and respond!!! And, Lord,
You have!!! You have already responded,
so many times!! You did this morning and
I appreciate it so much. I could feel
your mercies, oh so new mercies.
May this day be given to You, through substituting the
seventh grade class at La Plata. May
Your presence abound, through and around me and the class that I am in
today. Let them feel something new, and
question down the road what that was!
With much affection,
Beth
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